I've just got to say, finally I DONT CARE WHAT PEOPLE THINK..
and that makes me soooo happy. Knowing that I was raised by a traditional mexican family, Im not doing right by them…my own family. My parents at least. I know how much my mom wishes I would’ve stayed a virgin until I was married, like she did. But she knows very well how that doesn’t mean you will have a perfect life. When the magic happened…it happened, I was in love and I still am! Now we’re at the point where we are rebels..not disrespectful, we just love eachother and what ever happens is ok. Meaning if god blesses us with a child, we will be happy haaaaappy and glad! He’s said it..I feel it. I even need it. Im only scared about the situation because my mom would be so dissapointed that I havn’t finished school, that I didnt even wait until I was married, once again like she did. But like someone once told me maybe its a bluff. I hope so. I just know how happy James would be to have a baby of our own. He’s so adorable with our kids, our 3 build a bear stuffed animals. He tucks them in for bed every morning when he wakes up, because he says that they watch him while he sleeps taking care of him..its so cute. We have one for every Valentines Day we’ve been together, a bear which is Silly Billy from 08 then there was a panda JR. from 09 and a very special monkey named SUNI from this year. That is what we’re gonne name our boy(:
Something people seem to compliment you the most on:
In high school I would have answered my butt. Now a days people tell me they love my personality…I guess they dont really know me. I did get a compliment on my eyes before on the shape actually! The woman said my eyes were beautifully almond shaped…nice. Anyway compliments are good self-esteem boosters but nothing helps if you dont believe it yourself.
Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted:
My sophomore year of high school I moved schools and Im glad I did because my life came alive. I met an anazing group of friends and I became best friends with one. One who was also new to the school just a couple months after me. We watched the hills together, religously. We always stopped at the liqour store to get hot cheeto puffs and a monster. There’s so many memories. I had to let go because unfortunately we drifted apart from lack of communication after a certain situation.
Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit:
Well, you know at the moment I am quite happy so I cant really say exactly who treated me the worst or whatnot. I guess maybe I havn’t been treated toooo bad by anyone. Actually, Im working at a waterpark again and I am seriously the best fucking employee there but that always goes un-noticed, so I guess there. That.
My life is worth living for because GOD wanted me here, I have a purpose I am set to fulfill. When I figure that out, I’ll be forever happy. BUT the oh so cliche answer to this question: my first love. The person I am still with…plan to be with forever and have kids, a house, the whole shaabang. In an hour it’ll be our 2years and 8months anniversary….yes, we still do that! I think…no I dont think when Im around him, I just feel. I go with the flow because the flow feels so good. The kisses, the hugs and the inevitable smiles. Thats why he has made my life worth living for, until he and I have children..we are eachothers reason to live.
I hope that someday I am able to tell my kids how much I learned from my own parents..how much they did for me and how much I will be willing to do for them+James is going to be a great father..he’s excited about the kids we are yet to have.
Something you hope you never have to do:
I hope I never have to have an abortion for whatever reason. Never.
I forgive my birth father for ditching me when I was 2years old. I forgive him for blaming me recently, for not being in touch now… its because he never knew how to be a father. There’s always been a reason to stay away. I have only seen him about ten times in my almost 20years of life and he lives in the same town as me. Not only me but my brother and I. However I dont forgive him for often excluding my brother when he did try to get in touch.
I have to forgive myself for…leaving my friends for love. In high school I had some really good friends I had best friends but when he came along I was blinded. and YES I chose to be blinded, it was an amazing feeling…almost 3years later its still amazing. and NOW the friends that ‘I left’ in a sennse forgave me. It was never spoken but it doesn’t need to be spoken. I know what I did. I hung out with him 9 out of 10 times instead of my friends. But you know what those times created the best times/memories of my life. and you know…I dont regret it nope not one bit because I have him and them now. The ones who matter will stick around. and HE will be around..well forever so, sorry but I made the right choice.
I love………..that I think about my little brothers and my family as much as I do. I show my love-for-my-family side alot more than all of the people my age, they care more about who’s-house-we-gettin-drunk-at-tonight. Idk honestly Im not judging Im just saying this is a trait that I love about myself although I get made fun of for it because yes I am 19yrs. old but I’ll always be THE OLDEST and only girl. I may act like Im growing up but its undeniable I care sooo much about my family. Im a role model for my little brothers and I love them so much, they make me want to be a better person(:
I hate that I am very undesicive. In whatever situation Im in, it seems like I cant make my own choices without looking over my shoulder to see what someone else thinks. I care too much what others think about me, til this day.
Where did you meet? -Charleys Grilled Subs, we were employed there(:
When did you meet? -Oct29th 2007
Was it love at first sight? -Heck yeah..haha good times.
How old were you both? -I was 16 He had just turned 18(:
When did you have your first kiss? -Nov4th 2007
Who kissed who first? -I kissed him!
Where was your first date? -Movies—“watched” Saw4 (we were kissing during the whole movie)
How long until you met the parents? -A week after we got together(: his momma loved me instantly, we are so close now!
When was it official? -November 10th 2007
The good … Whats your happiest memory of him? -Every anniversary every holiday every date every moment every hello every goodbye too.
Whats the sweetist thing he has ever done for you? -He cooks for me all the time, takes me to work, massages, the cards and whats he writes..the list is endless.
Does he buy you lots of gifts? -He used to but now he’s jobless buuuuuut he just won some money at the casino so he’s taking me to see TS3
When did you know you were falling in love? -When any ex or crush didn’t matter cos everything he was and did was amazzzzzing, he was the one.
Who said I love you first? -He did!
Is it true love? -Couldnt be any clearer, its true real loveeeee.
How do you know this? -The night we said I love you, we rented P.S. I love you and after the movie was over he just turned to look at me held my face in the most gentle way and said i love you…and i said i love you too. Then that night I wrote all about it in my diary! Oh and cos its still as good as it was back then nowwww almost 3years later(:
The bad … Whats his worst habit? -He pokes his nose eeeew. aha
What annoys you about him? -He burps annoyingly on purpose to make my angrrrry grrrrr.
Has he ever hurt you badly? -He scared me once..
Do you trust him? -Yes, with everything…he’s so good.
Deep and meaningful … Could you be without him? -Yes, but I’d need him no doubt. If I have a choice…I choose to live forever with him.
Do you think about him constantly when your apart? -Yeah ridiculously. I love his company!
How long have you been together? -2years2months2weeks&6days<3
Can you see a future together? -Most definently, marriage, babies yeeeah we want it all!
Would you like to get married? -I already answered that.
Have children? -Suni our babyboy or girl(:
Where can you see your relationship in a years time? -The same as it is now but more pictures, moments and memories.
5 years time? -There will be +1 no doubt…haha
Do you know there is definatly no-one better out there for you? -I believe God made him just for me.
How do you know this? -I have faith we can stay strong and happy forever.
Are you scared he might find someone better? -He’s not looking..aha
Is he your best friend as well as your lover? -Couldn’t have it any other way!
Does he come first over everyone else in your life? -Familia and he is familia(:
Would you die for him? -Yes, if that meant saving his life.
His favorites … Food? -his mommas cooking!
Drink? -Ice Tea no doubt
Lasts … Time you saw him? -This morning when he dropped me off after watching Eclipse(:
Kissed him? -This morning.
Spoke to him? -a few mins ago..
The last text he sent you? -“Babe I love you so much I wanna be in love with you forever(;”
I texted him “I love you babe and Im home from work now”
When will you … See him again? -tonight? tmw for sure(:
Speak to him again? -In a few minssssss.
Tell him you love him again? -Tonight when we say goodnight!
Have you ever … Spent the night together? -oh yesssssss we loove to cuddle in the winter, right now it gets to sweaty!
Celebrated a holiday together? -Every holiday ever, his fam is mostly morning people and my fam is dinner type so it works out for us(:
Met his parents? -Im family gosh.
Made him cry? -He had a dream that I cheated on him:( I would never!!!!
Is this love? -Pleeeease if it wasn’t why would we smile when things are rough? Why would he laugh when Im mad at him? Why do I make him smile by smiling at him? Yes, Its love.