I’ll change, because I CAN. I will be generous with my money from now on, I’ll think like mom#2 and adult#3 in the household. I’ll hold off having my own family until my brothers and my parents are stable. I love them. We aren’t being evicted since we begged for the legal process to be cancelled and payed fees+3 past due months of rent, tomorrow Aprils rent is due..oh boy! I wish my parents worked as a team but all they do is blame each other. The right thing to do for now..is stay, no matter how much I want to leave. The right thing to do is pray and help my parents because I care.
We have to go to court now…we’re being evicted, great! Whateves as long as my family is together we’ll be fine. I have a few friends that I can learn from and that also makes me happy but the person that really inspires me is my boyfriend he just lives day by day truly staying positive. I am blessed, I see now.
- A: *walking by*
- B: I didn't know you go here
- A: I've been going here.. *keeps walking*
I don’t want to be like my mom..I’m scared to be like my mom;(
Two winters ago..oh how I wished I had boots and coats, like my friends and everyone else around me. Now I have 8 pairs of boots and at least 10 coats—-lovely. I’m blessed.
But I’m always like:
You know the party was good when you—don’t remember how you got home and you drove -_- or when you have war wounds from stopping a boy fight or when you “go-go” danced on a chairs and tables or when you saw all of the cool high school people and took pictures will all or when you snuck off to an empty closet to make out with a girl and everyone asked where the eff you were or when you throw out half a cup of captain Morgan your bestfriend was trying to cop—k nevermind that last one was so not cool, hella drunken moment! Good times(: now I’m good for awhile it’s fun but its not worth it when I know what’s truly best for me.
When I see this girl I’m friendly, I bring up conversations and stuff but her immediate reaction to seeing me is STRAIGHT UP ENVY. gosh!! Wipe that look off your face I didn’t do anything to you, I was just blessed(: