But you do know I can get any guy I want, have everything payed for, have him buy me lots of nice things, have a house maybe, life insurance maybe. But I’m with you. I’ll continue to pay for everything, I’ll continue to see where this goes. It might be my obsession with planning everything that happens but I know I’m somewhat legit on my requests. April 2012 is your deadline buddy. With 4.5 years on us you’d better have something concrete. I just want security, I’m a woman but I ain’t no fool.
This is my face when I think about my dreams. Idk how he dreams and dreams of becoming all these things in life. I wish I could. But I guess I’m stuck thinking I have to have a job while dreaming so it’s like I AM in the real world and I know that’s just how it is.
…will I regret it? Maybe. Do I have to pay for it all MYSELF? Yes.
But I’ll have zebra curtains, zebra light switch cover, zebra outlet covers, zebra laptop sleeve, beaded door curtain with a chinese happiness symbol, zebra circle wall decorations, Marilyn Monroe wall quote, zebra iPod touch case and a black very comfortable futon. I spent over 600 bucks 500 was credit so I’ll be in debt for a couple months cos o recently bought a nice wood desk and laptop both credit about 700 so Ahhhhh yeah I went way over board here BUT I deserve it and it is all MY responsibility. I’m going to love my room when it’s all done and spiffied up!!
“I can’t say I’m proud of my life, but I can say I’m proud that I’ve learned. I’ve learned that I can’t rely on everyone, but I can’t expect everyone to hurt me either. I know some things don’t work out, but I know everything has been for the better. I can’t guarantee I’ll be able to walk around with a smile. But I know where I’ve been, and where I’m going. I know who I am and who my friends are. I’ve had some tough stuff thrown at me, but I’ve gotten by. I’m not one to complain, so I’ll keep trying. And in the end, I’ll know I did my best.”—(via eletheowl)
My night was FUN. Event filled for once, couple functions lots of familiar faces and “Yeah! I’m still with James!” lmao it’s cute cos yeah it’s been 3 years since I graduated high school. I got into bed at 4am woke up at 8am showered and went to work 9am to 6:15pm..now THAT was the longest workshift ever but ay got a little over time. Then I ate and napped from 930-1030 and now shower then study til as long as I can stay awake!!!! I need an A in this class. But man this check on the 10th better be impressive cos I been bustin’ my ass lately.
Because I have exactly what I want and I won’t take it for granted. I refuse to be that girl again. I am Cyndi and I am just me. Thats enough for him(: that’s why I can see myself for the rest of my life with him.
..was almost 6 years ago and I miss that special day, especially being here at this one. My parents (especially my mom) sacrificed so much so that I can have that day. I’ll never forget it. My mom is so damn creative she decorated the entire thing, even her dress. 17,000 dollars were spent for me (: I was spoiled until I got a job—darn it. Thank you mom and dad!!