This doesn’t feel like my body anymore!!! I’m starting to snap at everyone, headache 24/7, nauseous all day too and heartburn. The only time I feel ok is when I’m eating. Are you fuckin kidding me! F you BC. You have never been my friend!
Bridge in Paris. You can hang locks on it with the name of you and your boyfriend /girlfriend / best friend and then throw away the key in the river. But when you break up, you can’t remove the lock, it stays there forever, just like a scar.
At age 8, your dad buys you an ice cream. You thanked him by dripping it all over his lap. When you were 9 years old, he paid for piano lessons. You thanked him by never even bothering to practice. When you were 10 years old he drove you all day, from soccer to football to one birthday party after another. You thanked him by jumping out of the car and never looking back. When you were 11 years old, he took you and your friends to the movies. You thanked him by asking to sit in a different row. When you were 12 years old, he warned you not to watch certain TV shows. You thanked him by waiting until he left the house. When you were 13, he suggested a haircut that was in fashion. You thanked him by telling him he had no taste. When you were 14, he paid for a month away at summer camp. You thanked him by forgetting to write a single letter. When you were 15, he came home from work, looking for a hug. You thanked him by having your bedroom door locked. When you were 16, he taught you how to drive his car. You thanked him by taking it every chance you could. When you were 17, he was expecting an important call. You thanked him by being on the phone all night. When you were 18, he cried at your high school graduation. You thanked him by staying out partying until dawn. When you were 19, he paid for your college tuition, drove you to campus carried your bags. You thanked him by saying good-bye outside the dorm so you wouldn’t be embarrassed in front of your friends. When you were 25, he helped to pay for your wedding, and he told you how deep he loved you. You thanked him by moving halfway across the country. When you were 50, he fell ill and needed you to take care of him . You thanked him by reading about the burden parents become to their children. And then, one day, he quietly died. And everything you never did came crashing down like thunder on YOUR HEART. If you love your dad, reblog
“Be soft. Do not let the world make you hard. Do not let the pain make you hate. Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness. Take pride that even though the rest of the world may disagree, you still believe it to be a beautiful place.”—(via mayberedemptionhasstoriestotell)
Finally there is a two year plan. School for as long as it takes to become an RN while working as a CNA. All while def taking BC pills. All while def living it up! Spending my very own hard earned dollars on meeeeee and myyyyyy fun! If the world ends next year well damn I’ll be with my family and that’s all that matters. Ohhhhh right—the bf, well yesterday was out 3.5yr anni but we didn’t do much but Old spaghetti Factory and movie cuddling together in bed then tickled each other smacked eachother lmfao Jk I smacked him(; Yesssss there is still love after so long. I kinda sorta feel like we got thisss. We just needed a carefree night to remind us like last night. Thanks to aunti flow no love makin but that’s the beat part we had such a fun time without it!
Can I be your wife? Then you can make me a mother so we can kiss our kids good night, and cradle them in our arms while we sing them off-tune lullabies that will stick with them as a distant memory as they grow older. Can we teach them how to say ‘mommy’ and ‘daddy’, and tell them the story of how…
Silly me——it did feel strange for all these emotions to come back to me..all at once but I figured out why “mothers day” as easy as…no, as much as that answer was staring me in the face I couldn’t see it because I allowed myself to vent and feel mad. That one night 5 months ago changed our lives forever but we def made that choice together. Now we have less a clue as to what we want but we do know that now we really do want to conceive. He’s worried my body can’t-just can’t;( oh god no it’s the scariest thing to say because I want to experience motherhood. My family is not always well functioning and it’s always hurt me to the core. Ever since I can remember I wanted my parents to marry, I wanted to live in an actual house with my family and be happy helping each other thru life. Maybe the best thing for James, myself and our future children IS to wait until we have a stable home for them—————the way I always wanted. Let go, let GOD! Let go, let GOD! Come on Cindy trust in him…!
You are probably a compulsive liar. You are about a month away from giving birth. And you def don’t look in the best health condition. Your damn pics show your cute belly..then your tits and your middle finger in the next pic— really? I pray you will be a good mom and change your lifestyle for the best of that child.
because that’s what I would have done, in a heart beat
..some of my “trustable” friends told other friends about my miscarriage—-and those “friends” didn’t come at me with one word, after knowing, they didn’t comfort me or anything..just gained knew information about my very private life..I have one thing to say to you—— FUCK YOU. I don’t wish it on any one of you it is the most painful thing I’ve been thru physically and emotionally. You may think…it wasn’t oh but dear, it was! Only those who’ve suffered through a situation like mine know what I mean. Lucky you who hasn’t, lucky you who got pregnant on your first try..and especially lucky you who had a successful healthy FIRSt pregnancy because you def got to enjoy all of your firsts in pregnancy. God, this is me crying on the inside.. But I know you know when it’s the right time—I have to finally let go!
I’ve heard it’s a neat store. We ditched our 8am class and went to dennys then Borders to kill time before Thor. We had alot of time so we checked out Best Buy..and then I wanted to check out the new baby store BUT he said he “didn’t wanna go in there” when I asked why he looked at me with the you-know-why-face then I said “but babe I need to get my friends baby shower gift and your sister is registered here too, let’s go come on! ” and NO it didn’t happen he even said for me to go in while he waited outside. I cried my heart out the past couple months and it did get easier as I talked about it, the websites were right. But I didn’t know my Hunny still felt that strong about it. Our JJ. Someday baby, someday. I couldn’t look at the word baby and not cry before. Now I can continue reading the magazines, pass by the baby section at Target and wonder around(: because someday when God gives us the blessing we will have a child. 1-21-11 < 3 y o u foreverinourheart&mind.
Seriously… I’ve enjoyed this time alone. I don’t need anyone who doesn’t care about me/or want to help me! I’m not the nicest person but I have a good heart and those who know me can see that past my money habits. I can’t say sorry for being me but I will say “fuck you, I’m independent!” (: happy cinco de mayo!